I have always wanted to write what I am about to write, but I could never really make myself sit down and do it.
I suppose it’s because I would need to open up, let people in and see the “real me” and deal with the attention that this might bring.
Ever since I can remember I have been very low in confidence and self-esteem, doing something new and stepping out of my comfort zone? Well that just feels me with absolute terror!
Quite often now, when I tell people I suffer with anxiety they don’t believe me, they say “well you always seem so happy and confident” (seem being the word there).
After all these years I have become very good at hiding my feelings and pretending, I have also become very good at getting out of things that I really don’t feel comfortable doing, without anyone knowing the real reason behind it.